Awakening again Skin is cold and wet, covered in writhing tendrils No idea how long it's been Passed out long ago, was dragged Echoes of those past transgressions The accuser leads the way The fool He thinks he can just step away? The judgement will come, the axe will fall This sinner He thinks he can shrug off the blame? His head will roll, his...Learn More

Awakened bewildered Beneath a blackened calloused sky A single star glistens As cold creeps in as icy knives With a flash of intuition Feeling something, a dark presence Neck hairs standing, lungs constricting Suddenly my will to live is engaged Festering, this sickness Corrupting, consciousness Deep within this darkness Is unrelenting shame On...Learn More

Exhaustion racks this corpse There is nothing left to give The legs begin to give out And the pursuers grow closer Black hands reach from shadows Seeking to gain purchase Weakly swatting them away Losing the will to live The footsteps patient and measured Come with confidence Like buzzards above the doomed Waiting for easy prey Afforded only...Learn More

A breath of air for the first time in years interrupted by tiresome awareness Dreamless sleep in a murky vacuum cut short as an unfulfilled promise Back on this path? What the hell has happened here? Was finally dead How much left of this torture Morose, cold, and alone Feel just like home Promised deliverance annulled Liars everywhere Darkness...Learn More

Dissociated and at arm's length is all I hope to be Those happy faces and knowing eyes forever will haunt me The way they look on, the way they follow, disapprovingly Their judgement falls on these deafened ears, I've done it all before Yes I remember (the choice) Who I am (doubtful) And I remember (the pain) What drove me here The vicious cycle...Learn More

A familiar feeling, the brush of flesh against my own Sounds of sobbing, weeping, of melancholy, lachrymose Surrounded by simple offers to help, to lend an ear These empty offerings, these hollow gestures that I loathe But it's all the same and they whisper nothings they don't care Look for a chance to seem a good person without effort They don't...Learn More

Alone Within my thoughts Reflecting On all I've said and done Never once Have I felt satisfied Never again Will I even try Anger, frustration Emotions flare and seethe Hands are shaking, filled with rage Betrayal from loved ones Real or fiction wound the same These feelings and this thinking Though unwarranted, undeserved Lead to a place...Learn More

A world of color returns Feeling of warmth renewed Senses return to what they once were prior to Joining the dead here in this place Start to remember something other than pain Euphoria calls Go down to ascend Medicated bliss Rapture is achieved And just maybe the answer is not To wait for help but go and find it This introduction to madness...Learn More

Falling head over heels in pain Wondering what could have led to this mistake Black washes over me I cannot see, this cannot be Yet I know what I have done Can’t take this back, I am to blame No, this was not my fault What of my friends or family? What’d they do to deserve this Neglected me, felt only a passive love for me I refuse to...Learn More