When I sunk through your tongue, it was then We were still twenty-something back then And when you learned that I had withered at times while you slept Too many thoughts of death to be pained And really nothing could have kept me from sinking in From rootlessness, from my drift to impress From your tongue nonetheless...Learn More

Anxiety hits me when I’m down Anxiety hits you when you’re not There is this restlessness, a constant ache That we try to underplay but anxiety always hits And I’m pained by your beauty, and yet you’re still You still enjoy the pain. You hold still I’m caught inside eulogies. I envy your scars How wonderful they all seem from here In all my...Learn More

I hear your grinding teeth You’ve given up on that dull mouthpiece As I lay awake, resisting sleep Though I almost always try to not get caught up in might-have-beens They’re surrounding me as I shut my eyes I see a grassy road less traveled by and a fog half way down the path. I see myself in ‘05, water combed And I remember those winter nights...Learn More

I see you blurred in my own reflections My mirror functions as nostalgia It’s like you’re standing right next to me getting my coat on But then it hits My niece is playing with action figures I wanna be five again Race in the rain again with my brother and the neighborhood, hearing you call us in That’s when it hits, longing for you Thought I saw...Learn More

January 18, some years ago J had called me while I slept And when I called him up his voice was toneless Martin died three days ago back at his old room His sister sent an invitation for the memorial in May Where I sat in the back row and watched the pile grow On the way home from the funeral I had this image from before: Martin’s dad worked as a...Learn More

Next to your machine, I was I couldn’t awake you somehow Something in me knew Something in you tried to plunder Almost as a dream, I twitch Holding back a sigh, I shiver Go on it’s alright, dad whispers I kneeled down and felt you breathe Breathe Next to your machine, I was I couldn’t awake you somehow Breathing at your pace Faith lies on that...Learn More

Your cigarette’s dead, like the storm under our sheets And the ashes on my bed leave marks for future heat Collecting dust like the floor under my lungs Well, who needs lust when all one lusts are more drugs? Hyperventilate...Learn More

Sleep now, oblivious you No one’s here willingly For now, nothing real will pass through your shield of heavenly cotton, heavenly you Lowering your heavenly you Sleep in the softest of silk You’ve felt it once before Lowered down and on to the earth, but the crying is now reversed. Lowering your heavenly you What could I have said? 7 AM I’m on...Learn More