Woke up to new snow on the ground And it felt like 10 steps backwards again Thought I'd better start digging myself out And then said "Fuck it" and went back to bed I guess it's never getting better I guess it's never getting better I guess it's never getting better I guess this is it Called out and never went back in Another chapter ends in...Learn More

My body is decades ahead of my brain And seconds away from giving out on me The thrill is gone and replaced with an ache So dull it could lull me to permanent sleep And you are an angel, you are a saint But I gave up in grade school on the Catholic faith And gave myself over to evil and hate As you pray for my soul, I’m out searching for...Learn More

Cut back my smoking From too much to a lot Downsized my drinking To exclusively shots And I can still sleep through a firing squad Thank God there's no reason to get up And I canceled all my plans So I'd have more time To make plans I can cancel Somewhere down the line When I look up from the TV and 10 years have gone by I'm still magnificently...Learn More

I work so fucking much that I can't feel my soul anymore I make so little money that the basic things in life I can't afford I've had so many loves but never been in love I never had any luck and when push came to shove Oh, we would always fall apart So I'm sorry if I come across as being bitter And I'm sorry if it seems like I take myself too...Learn More

A change of clothes and a case in the back seat I always sent you a text from the road I used to drive through the arch on Lake Street To a place that I used to call home I still send you messages from the road Sometimes you don’t respond and Sometimes you’re despondent Sometimes you’re reminded that I’m a hundred miles away We cracked the seal...Learn More

Teenage heartache Becomes middle age chest pain I am nostalgic for no one I look forward to nothing Youthful ambition Atrophies and stagnates Aspirations choke and die Apathy takes their place The story of my life could fit on one side of a page Folded into quarters, cut in half and double spaced Nearly three decades of drawn-out decay Reduced to...Learn More

Some nights I’m way more conscious of my teeth than I should be I push and pull and I swear they’re falling out I’m way less confident than I let on to anyone Since our falling out, I just wander around Maybe I should retrace my steps Maybe I should think a little less about death It's hard to let go and harder to accept So I'll say goodbye and...Learn More

I met you at the Eagle Across from our old high school We sat at our old table I barely recognized you We had nothing to say But we talked all night anyway I drove home with no heat And woke up at noon the next day And I tried to call you But you were working I keep forgetting some people are still alive 'Cause everyone I know's a...Learn More

How many lucky breaks does it take 'til it's broken? How many knocks on wood 'til your knuckles open? And with your final breath As you bleed to death You scream, "Oh God, why me?" 'Cause you're meaningless in the scheme of things You're a fucking nobody How many drunken drives 'til they're dragging the river? How many of your nine lives are...Learn More

I’ve been trying to let go of my grudges All my vices and habits and crutches But there doesn’t seem to be much left underneath And I don’t hate you as much as I used to That said, I can’t say I don’t want to I always figured it was better you than me And I’m not getting any younger But I still feel like a kid Naïve and only getting dumber With...Learn More

I've been trying to take a break from reading Kerouac But here I am with "Maggie Cassidy" again for the third time And I thought by now I would be moved out of my parents' house And have a place in Fishtown with my friends But even so I seem to be Exactly where I need to be I'm finally meeting some solid people And for me that's really a...Learn More

There are still rotting pumpkins left on the front steps In mid-February And there are poinsettias that are withered and dead In the cemetery When the ball dropped I sarcastically yelled, “Happy New Year” Because I'm pretty sure I’ll see it again Before I'm able to get out of here I've got dreams of New York City and London I have this dream...Learn More