Sliding past the corner cafes on sleigh bells filling lungs with smoke as a means to feel well this anomie all that’s surrounding me watching observing life as it goes by without me silently hoping my time will come what’s anomie? is it describing me? why does my life feel like a simulation? ‘cause what I am and who I want to be are...Learn More

La la la la la look at you La la la la la shiny and new La la la la la learning to love La la la la la as above Maybe there is a place for her among the queens with the choice to drink from every color of the rainbow she puts on her face of bravery by all means only blinks when someone calls her out for being in control Being In Total Control of...Learn More

It's five o'clock I'm waking up just in time to see the sun going down and I need to ease this achy heart drown my sorrows by the strings of lights around me Baby it's all just a little too much I don't know how to live without you Baby I'm so out of touch and I can't talk about it Baby I don't know what to do now you've taken everything away from...Learn More

I hide inside of desire not with you against you I hide my love from view ballooned my heart no contact like lilacs my senses defenseless I hide my love I’m blue Why can’t I be someone like you? Don’t wanna be your ingenue to experience less joy would be worth not feeling bad or so much sorrow to be hollow What part of me can be gone? Over being...Learn More

(Maybe it's the way that you say my name to me could it be the way that you keep me up Maybe it's the heat of the summer weight on me could it be the lightness of my heart I feel just like a night in July) Do you want to feel like a summer night? When the air feels heavy but your heart feels light? Do you want to feel like a summer night? Do you...Learn More

You begin speaking and I can feel the way you prod at me to see through the slats of my ribs like bending the blinds trying to peer out Makes me wonder why you pulled them down if you wanted to see my window break but I guess the cracks are just enough to make to make it weak I'll pretend not to notice discomfort although this sadistic situation...Learn More

Twenty miles to a capillary dead end How long until you find a place you can rest your weary head? Down across the river dismally with only pennies in your pockets if you’re lucky I guess I will try it, I don’t see why it would be foolish wistfully thinking I wouldn’t be sad if we shared a home well, I think that’s what you called it lost...Learn More

Stepping along the street I glance up at the marquee where you and I will meet you’ll sit by me a little too closely But we won’t know what to do there’s nothing we can act upon I’m feeling faded gray, subdued while you’re so soaked in neon When you find a way I don’t look forward to that day it’s ‘cause I know drop everything and slide away like...Learn More

I keep getting the feeling that the things that I purchase don't belong to me and that I've given up all that I started with do you remember the time we listened to the same song twice? Oh Alex Oh Alex, where did you go? Oh Alex Oh Alex, we didn't know how you lost your coat in the dark rainy night lying somewhere in the midst of the streets...Learn More

In a dream I was queen of the blackberries deleted scenes without my shadow with no need for a king how you constantly define the terms of what you wanted (I think we should try it out) A canopy growing free high above the purple streets to give us shelter from the weather When it rains stay indoors to remember the safety of a web...Learn More

I find myself wanting to be the water or the light on the dock or the slow movement of a passing ship I just want to feel part of something bigger I wonder why I don’t Everyone sees the giant in the sky up there in the painted sunset there’s the sound of the fountain something that can’t be touched or held How did guilt become a condition for...Learn More

Late after dark I'm up in my room contemplating an impending doom bottled my heart but it's hard to tell a feeling of need like a demon from hell I decided that I would come over you were drunk and I was painfully sober oh no throughout the night I thought I might die as late summer turned to fall I knew (I knew and you knew or did you?) All I...Learn More