[Chorus] I walked four thousand paces on the back porch spouting nonsense last night And I threw nineteen cigarette butts in an empty beer bottle that I left on the other side I’m sure the people passing by started trembling and counting out my steps I’m sure in all the fog I was a vision from a horror movie set [Verse 1] But the voices in my head...Learn More

[Verse 1] And I can’t speak And I can’t breathe And I can’t think So just leave me be [Chorus] Because I’m too far gone I’m so far gone I’ll just sit and watch the night fade into the searing morning light Just leave me be, but please don’t leave Because I need you here, I need you next to me When I calm down When I calm down [Verse 2] I’ll spend...Learn More

[Chorus] She said that I'd be fine She said that I’d be fine She said that I'd be fine But I guess I'm not [Verse 1] She said you always told me That you were going crazy And I guess you finally showed me When you laughed through your tears and spewed your bile at me [Chorus] She said that I’d be fine That she'd always want me in her life I said...Learn More

[Verse 1] Can’t stand these aches Can’t stand these pains I can’t stand watching myself waste away I can’t stand living in my brain [Verse 2] But now you’re always here For me to pour out all of my tears to Now you’re all I want to be And now you’re all I fear [Chorus] So pull me closer my darling It’s getting colder here So slide on over my...Learn More

[Verse 1] Well I’m a mess without my meds, scratch that I’m a mess with them too I’m a mess when I’m without you, scratch that I’m a mess when I’m with you Watch me wisen my self-pity I’m confident in my self-doubt I’m a walking contradiction I’ve let weak work that out [Chorus] See I’m a mess, and I’m a wreck Even though I can’t see past it All...Learn More

[Verse 1] And these whirring gears Whose work’s from my ears Little ticking cogs and springs that keep my fragile ego hungry All snapping in time Each synapse intwined In this all-consuming ringing Jesus Christ it’s unrelenting [Chorus] Can’t help but feel it’s all a contradiction Can’t help but feel I’m wasting time I can’t help but feel it all...Learn More

[Verse 1] I’ve got so much on mind about how little’s on my mind And I’m drowning in an ocean of thoughts about my thoughts And there you are right next to me, so near and yet so far I could reach out and touch you but my thoughts can’t go that far As I’m basking in my psyche it’s a revel for anxiety You could speak out try to reach me but I can’t...Learn More

So I told myself I wouldn’t be doing a spoken word intro to the record, but uh, here I am doing a spoken word intro to the record Don’t worry though there isn’t going to be any cringey poetry or pretentious pontification; that comes later, in droves I just feel the obligation as a human being to tell you that shit’s going to get heavy in there....Learn More

[Verse 1] It’s been a long night alone here Drowning myself with cigarettes and cheap beer And I’ve lost count of the nails I put in my coffin But I hope I’ve knocked off a few years Because I’m losing grip on all of my reality A grip that started off tenuous at best But if my self-medication won’t heal me At least the spiders under my skin will...Learn More

[Verse 1] Well I ate my breakfast from an amber vial That’s a lie, I’ve been off the stuff for quite awhile It’s just the empty husk I live in became francophile But at least I haven’t craved some brains in quite awhile [Verse 2] I hope the metaphor came through there, I hope I’m not obtuse It’s just she called me it so often that I thought it...Learn More

[Verse 1] God damn tonight And every other one That I spent wrapped up in my bed If I were wrapped in you instead I’d be plucking notes on heartstrings For now I’m mapping cracks in ceilings [Verse 2] God damn tonight And all the other ones That I spent lying awake with her If I’d been dreaming then I’d be so much better off now I was so deep I...Learn More

[Verse 1] Sometimes I long for the feeling of another body pressed against me Then I remember everything else that that entails But for now I’m just too tired, apathetic, and fat, and lazy So darling, if you don’t mind, I won’t be chasing your tail [Pre-Chorus] See I’m too busy standing still Everyone else is whizzing past me So I’ll ingest more...Learn More