[Lyric] 11 AM (Shayla Santin)

When I was still a child, I thought my parents were heroes.
But now I know, that they aren't, at all.
I used to sit in my bedroom, and listen to them argue.
I'd just listen until I feel asleep and all faded dark.

One day I went out to play, and my mother grabbed me by my hair.
In that fake, sweet voice she asked,
"Where are you going, dear?"
I pointed to the door, indicating I was going outside.
She let me go but I never had the drive.

I always told people I was okay,
But isn't that what we all say?
I want to go tomorrow, fuck today.
I just want to be okay.
Drawing picturеs on my wrists is getting boring.
But life is hard when othеrs are just ignoring;
All the fuckin' signs.
That you hate your life.

Tell them you're fine.
Just keep going.
You'll be fine.
Don't be a baby.
I look like myself but I'm someone else.
I can smile like myself but I'm someone else.
Ignoring all the flashing yellow lights and bandages.
I don't know how much longer I can handle this.
And here you were thinking that I was happy.
My life has been shitty and crappy.

But just keep ignoring because I can play pretend.
Sometimes,
Sometimes,
I wish that life would end.