[Lyric] ​​a familiar feeling (morgan bates)

Just gotta slow it down
Terrified of the future
Scrape my brain
Try to pull it out
I can't escape the doubt
And im running from the past
Dug a hole straight into the ground
It always hits me when i lie down
Ive been way too distant
I dont know whos on my side now
Ive seen it a million times now
Ive mastered descention
Strapping in and take a ride down
Learned it all the hard way
I just keep my mouth shut
All feels way too hard to say
Bursting seams just trying to find a place
Im asking "now what"
Why does it always end the same
Watch it turn to dust
I pour my life into a project
Then i give it up
Nothings ever good enough
I can't make it up
Always havе to sabotage myself
I hate who i'vе become