[Lyric] An Aggressive Display of Screaming and Acceptance (Thank You Driver)

It's this blissful agony I'm scared I'll miss
Apathetically forgetting what you did to remind me of this

August, school is almost in session
Which twenty-six letters did you use to break her heart?
The writing is on the walls I'll learn through repetition
Thankful that even the nights fade away
It's hard to grow while I'm tripping on the family roots
And you leave us to

The hands in a god that you see is just
Oh but that silver lining above your head
(I'll burn that bridge, when I get to it)
Is out of reach
(Watch it crumble like the ash off a cigarette)
I'll forgive you when you're savеd
From the two scarred eyеs painted on your mask
(Now your hands are stained with my blood)
Your beauty is betrayed by the bottle
They taught us what love meant today
But I forgot that counting holes in the walls
(Forgive me for calling this a murder)
Our tight ends are frayed
She pretends she doesn't see me
Like a moth eaten family quilt
I don't think she wants to see me
Relinquished relations
Oh God I hope she sees me
I still feel fine
I am begging for her stare

Don't turn your back on me
Just because I'm forgetting how to breathe

So I pretend to be
Intending forever
A million smiles and a million lies

Obtrusive thoughts of violence are peaking through my blinders on the third floor
(This effort won't last forever)
The downstairs neighbors aggressively stab at their ceiling
(I said that I had relied on the sound)
Our battleground is a play without satire
This display is far from comical
It's a torturous repetition
(Of your voice)
Of knocking, screaming, acceptance, and helplessness
(Cutting through the air)
I wish the weekends were seven days long, so I won't see betrayal again
(And she looked back and stared)
Oh god, oh god, oh god
(And she looked back and stared)
Is everyone this dysfunctional?
I wished I had an answer
But some choose silence over admittance
(She replied with a silence)
I wished someone would admit that
(Unlike anything I've ever heard)
I wished somebody would fucking tell me
But instead all I get is misery without context
(Unlike anything I've ever heard)
Keeps me up trying to find the words to describe
(Unlike anything I have heard)
My broken heart that's repeatedly shattered then mended together with lies
Lies, lies, a million fucking lies
If their truths were alive, they'd hide like animals in a storm now we're drowning and praying for our right to breathe

Just give me a stare
I am waiting for your god-like stare

I'm truly just frightened by the thought
Yet I continue to surrender myself

So I pretend to be
Intending forever
A million smiles and a million lies
A million fucking lies