[Lyric] Ashamed (Deer Tick)

I am the boy your mother wanted you to meet
But I am broken and torn with halos at my feet
And with your purest light, why don't you shine on me
Well, I should've been an angel
But I'm too dumb to speak

Now as she gets nearer, the visions get clearer
I'm kneeling, weeping, I will hold her dear
Oh, If your eyes water
You got your favorite number to spin

And oh, ah oh, ah oh, whoa, whoa
What a crying shame, a crying shame
What we became

Murdered my throat, screaming bloody all night
Hit him with a book and how he crumbles
Oh, you should have seen how the arches tumble
They're golden no more, now I'm smiling in my blood

I'm caught in a whirlwind, I'm going to heaven
I'm standing on trial and it's painted on canvas
An eternal testament to how we are so animalistic
And oh, ah oh, ah oh
What a crying shame, a crying shame
What we became

I bowed my head in the morning light and said goodnight
I held her hand and I, I kissed her eyes
Stumbled down the stairs and hang myself on high
And I started for the town lyin' in the front yard, I died