Verse 1:
Killa city life
TRY HARD TO SURVIVE
Standing on the ledge
Look down, SEE THEIR FACES
They're nameless
CANT CONTAIN THIS
Burden
Carry the weight of my GUILT
IM CERTAIN MY FATE HAS BEEN SEALED
Gripping the gun I concealed
LIVED BY A CODE BASED ON HONOR
Seems to be chinks in my armor
MIRACLE IM NOT A GONER
Drinking til sun up its harder
BURY THE FACT IM A MONSTER
Much like my partner BEFORE ME
Pray I don't plummet IM SORRY!
Try to keep a STRAIGHT FACE in public
Although I PACE through this RACE
I stumble and lose GRACE
I MADE IT
In last place
Now I stand in this pouring rain
Drenched in my shame
It PAINS ME
To be this weak
FAME
I no longer seek
Even with these words I speak
There's a raging war inside of me
Reading Deuteronomy
Seeking guidance
The price is cheap
If I'd opened up much sooner
I wouldn't find myself in this ambulance
Hook:
Self-medicating
Results devastating
Succumb to the darkness
Slowly excavating
A hole that needs filling
Steadily drilling
Consistently feeding
This demon that hungers
For misery's synergy
Will death bring me liberty
That's life's biggest mystery
Wasted my days with regret
Walking bitterly
Lived in the shadow
Of those I've aspired to
Fell through with delivery
The slope it was slippery
God has no mercy
For those who withdraw from their journey in life!
Verse 2:
Got so close to VICTORY
But lost my vote of CONFIDENCE
Like Hillary
Had PROMINENCE
The problem was
NO COMMON SENSE
Often I would PRETEND
In front of those WHO KNEW ME THEN
Would spend my time TRYING TO BEFRIEND
Someone I felt HAD GOOD INTENT
Let the serpent ENTER EDEN
Gave my will to FREEDOM
REASON
Threw it out the WINDOW
DRIVEN
To break my soul out OF THIS PRISON
Give it a hundred and one percent
Pull the weed then plant the seed LET IT FERMENT
It's drinking season TIME TO VENT I'M INCOHERENT
I know my mind's RESILIENT
But my heart in just one INSTANT
Lost all FEELING
Need some HEALING
Barely SLEEPING
HALLUCINATING
A weird sensation
CREPT OVER, LOOMING OVER ME
I took a knee
Pretty shaken
Awaiting Satan
FACE MY TRIAL LIKE IM BACK IN SALEM
I decimated determination
FILLED IT WITH FAILURE
It's in my nature
To be this way
I DONT NEED NO FAVORS
It only gets stranger
Looked up to the Saviour
Crazy is as crazy as does
Did it all to build a buzz
Hook: Repeat
Verse 3:
10,000 volts go THROUGH ME
Defibrillator WORKS POORLY
God believes in CRUELTY
My body's bleeding out PROFUSELY
CONFUSION is taking over
I'M STUCK in a narrow corridor
Out the window is HEAVEN's GATES
My entrance is denied LIKE A FOREIGNER
Doctor's trying to save my CARCASS
Doesn't know my soul's A GONER
Devil welcomed me to the PITS OF HELL
But I don't wanna go there
IT WAS AN EASY JOB for the CORONER
The cause of death was a FORFEITURE
Easily blamed it to depression
Goddamn, my INDISCRETIONS
Heavy thoughts of SELF REFLECTION
Didn't want to draw ATTENTION
Never made a single MENTION
Or stuck my hand out STAYED SILENT
Inhabited a mental paradise
A place no one would ever find
My shining LIGHT IT DIED
I tried to change THE TIDE
I CRIED, even put my PRIDE ASIDE
I knew when I wrote "NIGHTS"
That I would never get to meet the CHRIST
I've been dwelling on the past
Instead of focusing on the present
Too many poor decisions
Should've wizened up
NOW IT's TOO LATE!
Hook: Repeat
Killa city life
TRY HARD TO SURVIVE
Standing on the ledge
Look down, SEE THEIR FACES
They're nameless
CANT CONTAIN THIS
Burden
Carry the weight of my GUILT
IM CERTAIN MY FATE HAS BEEN SEALED
Gripping the gun I concealed
LIVED BY A CODE BASED ON HONOR
Seems to be chinks in my armor
MIRACLE IM NOT A GONER
Drinking til sun up its harder
BURY THE FACT IM A MONSTER
Much like my partner BEFORE ME
Pray I don't plummet IM SORRY!
Try to keep a STRAIGHT FACE in public
Although I PACE through this RACE
I stumble and lose GRACE
I MADE IT
In last place
Now I stand in this pouring rain
Drenched in my shame
It PAINS ME
To be this weak
FAME
I no longer seek
Even with these words I speak
There's a raging war inside of me
Reading Deuteronomy
Seeking guidance
The price is cheap
If I'd opened up much sooner
I wouldn't find myself in this ambulance
Hook:
Self-medicating
Results devastating
Succumb to the darkness
Slowly excavating
A hole that needs filling
Steadily drilling
Consistently feeding
This demon that hungers
For misery's synergy
Will death bring me liberty
That's life's biggest mystery
Wasted my days with regret
Walking bitterly
Lived in the shadow
Of those I've aspired to
Fell through with delivery
The slope it was slippery
God has no mercy
For those who withdraw from their journey in life!
Verse 2:
Got so close to VICTORY
But lost my vote of CONFIDENCE
Like Hillary
Had PROMINENCE
The problem was
NO COMMON SENSE
Often I would PRETEND
In front of those WHO KNEW ME THEN
Would spend my time TRYING TO BEFRIEND
Someone I felt HAD GOOD INTENT
Let the serpent ENTER EDEN
Gave my will to FREEDOM
REASON
Threw it out the WINDOW
DRIVEN
To break my soul out OF THIS PRISON
Give it a hundred and one percent
Pull the weed then plant the seed LET IT FERMENT
It's drinking season TIME TO VENT I'M INCOHERENT
I know my mind's RESILIENT
But my heart in just one INSTANT
Lost all FEELING
Need some HEALING
Barely SLEEPING
HALLUCINATING
A weird sensation
CREPT OVER, LOOMING OVER ME
I took a knee
Pretty shaken
Awaiting Satan
FACE MY TRIAL LIKE IM BACK IN SALEM
I decimated determination
FILLED IT WITH FAILURE
It's in my nature
To be this way
I DONT NEED NO FAVORS
It only gets stranger
Looked up to the Saviour
Crazy is as crazy as does
Did it all to build a buzz
Hook: Repeat
Verse 3:
10,000 volts go THROUGH ME
Defibrillator WORKS POORLY
God believes in CRUELTY
My body's bleeding out PROFUSELY
CONFUSION is taking over
I'M STUCK in a narrow corridor
Out the window is HEAVEN's GATES
My entrance is denied LIKE A FOREIGNER
Doctor's trying to save my CARCASS
Doesn't know my soul's A GONER
Devil welcomed me to the PITS OF HELL
But I don't wanna go there
IT WAS AN EASY JOB for the CORONER
The cause of death was a FORFEITURE
Easily blamed it to depression
Goddamn, my INDISCRETIONS
Heavy thoughts of SELF REFLECTION
Didn't want to draw ATTENTION
Never made a single MENTION
Or stuck my hand out STAYED SILENT
Inhabited a mental paradise
A place no one would ever find
My shining LIGHT IT DIED
I tried to change THE TIDE
I CRIED, even put my PRIDE ASIDE
I knew when I wrote "NIGHTS"
That I would never get to meet the CHRIST
I've been dwelling on the past
Instead of focusing on the present
Too many poor decisions
Should've wizened up
NOW IT's TOO LATE!
Hook: Repeat
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