[Lyric] Been A Loser From The Jump (Frander)

[Verse 1]
I tried so hard to keep it silent
But my mental finna break
All this pressure on my mind, I wonder how much I can take
I done been betrayed by family, I'm runnin from the state
Losing grip on all this sanity, cause trauma that I face
All a nigga know is pain, since the day that I was born
Couldn't settle for no less, had to go an get me more
When I grew up we was poor, shopping at the dollar store
That's for lunch and for my dinner, grew up on me as a sinner
I ain't never been a winner, been a loser from the jump
I got hope and hella bitches, they gon play me for a punk
Now I'm only countin up, I can't even give a fuck
You ain't yayo in the cut, drinkin liquor now I'm stuck
For my mama I'mma get it, for my sister, grab a mil, have my grandma livin worried
I was dyin from the pills, got my vision goin blurry, cause i'm messin up the drugs, I was chiefin on them mids, I ain't worried about no runts
Truly I was fiendin, million dollar schemin, my brothers always dreamin, plottin every weekend
Hustled every day, for a little pay, each and every way, i'm gonna get some change, facts