[Lyric] Blacktops Dont Cure Depression (Vacant Territory)

[Verse]
When did you grow up?
You’ve never really changed

She went to his house for more than laughter
In his bed till the morning after

And I’ve been throwing up my guts
Throwing up words onto my screen
Of self deprecation and
Heartfelt breakdowns left on seen

I’m not special
Being lonely is my norm

I just keep writing songs
That bring myself and others harm

So I’ll just call my shrink
Maybe it’ll give me time to think
And I’ve been waiting for you to bring me to my senses
[Chorus]
I cannot breath
And I cannot sleep
And I’ve been having nightmares
Since I turned 16

It’s hard to believe, but
Privileges makes me guilty
Of being ungrateful
Towards the life I lead

And I need to figure out why I’m bleeding
And I need to figure out
What's wrong with me

[Verse]
I remember crying in a bathroom stall
Silence echoing through the halls
And I couldn’t be brave

So desperate to fit in, I constantly tried
To hide all the shit I was feeling inside
And it left me- nihilistic

And I’m sorry for placing you up on a shelf
You deserved something else
Way less hurtful and distant
And I am always anxious so please
Just keep trying to talk to me
Or you might just let me go
(They all do)

[Chorus]
I cannot breath
And I cannot sleep
And I’ve been having nightmares
Since I turned 16

It’s hard to believe, but
Privileges makes me guilty
Of being ungrateful
Towards the life I lead

And I cannot breath
And I cannot sleep
And I’ve been having nightmares
Since I turned 16

And I need to figure out why
I’m bleeding

And I need to figure out why
I’m bleeding
And I need to figure out why
I’m bleeding

And I need to figure out
What's wrong with me