[Lyric] BLUECHECKS (Rissio)

I hate looking into the mirror and seeing myself
No complex emotions
Just complexity in completing myself
I hate looking for validation through social media
I need social mediation
And real conversation
And some closure from some past relations
Cos I tend to blame myself for things I can't control
I hate the way some things unfold
I hate that some people find some topics uncomfortable
I find comfort through solidarity
And letting go
And I'm so done
With reruns
Series of unfortunate events
Play out through seasons
People leave
But i can't think of excuses to keep them
Ghost me for reactions
But only regret taking time to meet them
I wanna meet some real ones
I'm tired of the condescending
Can we quit the pretending
Until then I'm spending
I'm spending, another night on the moon, ooh
I'm spending, another night on the moon, ooh

Bluechecks
We're so obsessed
Mood swings
On a swing set
Pushed away
Thrown to the woodchips
I might recess
Just black licorice
Societal reject
I dont wanna get played or play around
Or play by the rules in this Play Town
Playing the victim is so played out
I found solace in the rainfall
Used to rain on my parade
Now u look up to me
I'm the nimbus spitting lyrics from this rain cloud
U hurt me, now I'm hungry
Spilling tears in fear that I'll get bigger than ur name
Like
Pitter pitter patter on the concrete
I have no following so they won't bother following
Only have 4 digits so it's not enough to call me
All i know is up, so I can't help to feel I'm falling
I'm crawling to the top
The mountain not traversed
A roadless traveled
Travel til it works
I'm humbled by the hurt
They didn't trip on me
So I stumbled on my worth
And now they're history
I'll go viral cos it's meant to be
This is my destiny
No more surrendering
No one defended me
But I'm still here
No verification
They hate innovation
No lil in my name
So nobody would care
Reaching for help
But nobody was there
I'm reaching for EDEN
I'm climbing the stairs
Searching for something to believe in
I'm crashing through the stars
And I'm steppin off the deep end
Until then

I'm spending, another night on the moon, ooh
I'm spending, another night alone, far from home, oh
I'm spending, another night on the moon, ooh
I'm spending, another night alone, far from home, oh