[Lyric] Blurry version of me. (Fizzalott)

stuck looking in the mirror
for the 5th time today
see my body, see my clothes
see my hair, see my toes
i want it all to go away

now covering the mirror
with my moms moms old quilt
looking at the beautiful creation
but looking at it brings me guilt

cause im not admiring her beautiful patchwork
im wishing i could see something better
than my own reflection
lost my anti depressants, that don't really work

its been a week now
blankets still covering the mirror
i cant sleep now
my own thoughts, wishing i couldnt hear em
i look and see
a different personality
the person that i never wanted to be

ill change my clothes a million times
ill google words that can rhyme
im writing songs, telling jokes
to escape what i dont know
what i dont want to see

a blurry version of me

i wish i could be happy with me
wish salt water stopped running down my cheeks
dysmorphia morphing my body
i cant see me anymore

dont know what i really look like
lie to them, say its all right

is my stomach too fat
are my arms too thin
i look in the mirror
its terrifying

a shadow is all i can see
a shadow is all i can see
a shadow is all i can see
a blurry version of me
dysmorphias morphing my body
dysmorphia is killing me
i just want to be happy with me
i just want to be able to look at my body

without shedding a tear
without fearing my peers thoughts
i wanna go out in a bikini
i wanna actually feel pretty

wearing makeup since i was 8
missing school lunch since the first grade
a kid shouldnt think about that
i was 7, i shouldnt have been called fat

i wish i could be happy with me
wish salt water stopped running down my cheeks
dysmorphia morphing my body
i cant see me anymore

dont know what i really look like
lie to them, say its all alright

is my stomach too fat
are my arms too thin
i look in the mirror
its terrifying
a shadow is all i can see
a shadow is all i can see
a shadow is all i can see
a blurry version of me