[Lyric] Buzzing Flies (Gurldoll)

[Spoken]
"There is nothing left for me to live for. Y'know what I mean?"


I bite my tongue, it's all a lie
Don't wanna fucking be alive
I wanna fall out of the sky
Probably won't even say goodbye
I'll drink myself to fucking death
Or maybe swallow all the rest
Of these pills, take these pills
Just so I can fucking feel alive

Asking why? What's the point of even opening my eyes?
Every day, all the same, why the fuck was I born this way?
All the same, every day, it's like this every fucking day
I'm using just to numb the pain, I want these thoughts to go away

All these thoughts, it's gross
Haunted by ghosts
I always do the fucking most
I'm so dramatic, TV static
I can't hear you, I'm alone
I say the same thing, do the same thing
Drink the same thing, every day
This shit is stupid, brain polluted
Won't these thoughts just go away?
It's empty in this heart of mine
It's full of dust, I cannot cry
My soul just died, my brain is fried
My body's running out of time
I'm not someone to idolize
This life isn't a fucking prize
It's dark in here, there's buzzing flies
I think I'm running out of time

I think I'm running out of time
I'm screaming, can you hear my cries?
My heart is beating so off-beat
So help me God, I dare not weep
Every day, I'm so defeated
Gouge my eyes out, watch me bleeding
Get me out my fucking head
I know I'm gonna wind up dead

I bite my tongue, it's all a lie
Don't wanna fucking be alive
I wanna fall out of the sky
Probably won't even say goodbye
I'll drink myself to fucking death
Or maybe swallow all the rest
Of these pills, take these pills
Just so I can fucking feel alive
Asking why? What's the point of even opening my eyes?
Every day, all the same, why the fuck was I born this way?
All the same, every day, it's like this every fucking day
I'm using just to numb the pain, I want these thoughts to go away

I want these thoughts to go away
I want these thoughts to go away
I want these thoughts to go away
I want these thoughts to go away

It's empty in this heart of mine
It's full of dust, I cannot cry
My soul just died, my brain is fried
My body's running out of time
I'm not someone to idolize
This life isn't a fucking prize
It's dark in here, there's buzzing flies
I think I'm running out of time