[Lyric] Cain Pt. III (Micah McCaw)

Every night I awake to hear my brother's failing lung
Every night I awake to taste the blood and dust on my tongue
Every night I awake I smell the scent of rotting flesh
Every night I awake to see life turning to death

God is this justice?
Or just merciless pain?
My life is like a desert
You'd never bless with rain

If this is righteousness I'd hate to see Your vengeance
If this is mercy I would hate to see the condemned

Every time I run I'm always stuck within Your gaze
You bless with a cursed mark and call it grace
Well I believe in consequence but how could beauty torture so?
I'm stuck in a battle with a sword that has gone dull

God is this beauty?
Is this Your master plan?
Is this what love is
Forever being damned?
If this is righteousness I'd hate to see your vengeance
If this is glory I would hate to see the condemned
I don't really know who You are anymore
Are these the actions of a loving Lord?

I don't really know who You are anymore
But maybe I never really did