[Lyric] Conversations With My Younger Self (J-7 Bars)

Intro: Yeah, bleed on the page and grieve from the stage. One day it’ll all make sense it’s just a little chaotic right now. But don’t worry it won’t be like that forever

Verse:
Dear Christian, I know right now you feel depression still
And like your heart inside your chest really might never heal
Your friends just don’t accept you, but you’ll accept yourself and realize what you’re going through is something they have never felt

You don’t know it yеt but right now you’re immature
So beforе it all gets better it gets a little worse

But that’s just God tryna shape and grow your character which always tends to happen when life goes and hits you where it hurts

One day it’ll all come full circle, you’ll understand
You’ll thank God for the hardship, and His other plans

You’ll thank Him for the prayers, when the answer was no
And the pain you felt that you just won’t have anymore

Right now you’re fourteen, I know that she just broke your heart
What’s weird is one day she’ll come back around and you’ll close the door
You’ll learn that she just don’t deserve you and I know it hurts, but you’ll heal from all of that just so you can hurt some more
You’ll spend three years without a friend in isolation
But you’re a fighter so you’ll persevere and fight and make it
And at the moment when you’re feeling like the light is fading
You’ll meet your best friend at your job and he’ll say “Hi, I’m Nathan.”

It will all be good until it take a screeching turn
At seventeen you’ll think that you’re in love but she’s a jerk
You’ll hold on really tight and it’s gonna leave you hurt, but then you’ll learn to lean on God at the times you need support

I know that You and Him aren’t very close...

But just wait until you’re feeling like you’ll really drown
That’s the point you’ll call and then you’ll ask Him if He’s still around
And He’ll be there for you at the moment when you’re reaching out (Amen)

Oh, and 2020 that’s about to crash and burn
The first two months were really bad, but that gets worse

They’ll shut the entire world all thanks to Covid
But what’s going on around you ain’t got’ break your focus

And this is when you’ll really start to write some raps
You’ll make an album just as soon as you get out the mic and pad
You’ll make a few albums relaying how your life’s a wreck
But by the third one you’ll mature and then I think you might reflect
But before the albums done you’re moving out of state
But that’s just like the rest of all of California nowadays
And I know that right now this probably sounds insane, but when you get to Idaho you’ll love it all right out the gate

Oh, remember how you started working out
Well you’ll hit three plates on your bench a year from now

And you also did your weighted chin-ups shoutout Malakai
I wish that I could stay here but we’re almost out of time

Now you’re eighteen and things ‘bout to start looking up
God will change will your broken heart that you had thought just wouldn’t budge
But then since you’ve never been good at love, you’re gonna be afraid when you meet another girl that you start falling for

Of course that’s gonna happen right before the year is done
You’ll fall really hard, and you’ll fear the love
But this time is different so just hear me out
Let me clear it up
The man inside the mirror’s a little different now

You’ve never felt like this before and you’ll love her in the purest way
Then she’ll fall for you and she’ll be here to stay

She’ll be better than you could’ve fathomed
And beyond the greatest thing that you could imagine
Then in 2021 you’re gonna buy a house
Finish up your album once you have these things to write about
I wish that we could meet, I think it might’ve helped
If I could talk to younger me just change the clocks rewind the dials

But I know that if you could see me now you’d be really proud
Or at least surprised since you were suicidal and I’m still around

Joyner Lucas will write I’m Sorry and save your life (508)
You didn’t take the easy route so you had to pay the price

But it’s okay, you’ll learn that God is always with you
And to cut off all the fake friends that will try to trick you
And some things about yourself that somehow never hit you
Just make sure to never give up the fighting spirit that’s been in you

Outro: Sometimes you’re just so ignorant when you’re young that you can’t even realize or see how much you have to learn. Sometimes it’s a process, and sometimes it hurts, but it’s necessary to become the person that you were always meant to be