[Lyric] Dark Room (Codex Obscura)

I found myself in the company of ghosts
Who's ankles wore grief like chains
With hands over their eyes
Wearing their faith in god
As a desperate disguise

In this darkened room at home
I sat and said goodbye
Wishing that you could speak
Watching your words cascade in silence
As they trickled down your cheek

If not the wounds of wasted time
And years of idle silence
Then what hurt the most to me?
That i am here because of you
Or watching you as you disappear?

I still hear that awful sound
The rattling in my brain
The endless gasping drowning me in fear
It makes me sick to death
The putrid smell of futile man
And knowing it was done
When i ushered you to your bedroom
Sitting knowing you were gone
I took my first and final breath that night
Watching all the years to pass
As they would leave me well behind
Showing me what i'll never become