[Lyric] Dead Or Alive (DRACUL_IRL)

It began I did not think that shit like this was real
Years I felt like I was lost out on the open sea
Thought about the end of me
Do I really want to feel
Do I even want to because all I really want is leave
Momma, I'm so sorry cause your son is just a wreck
Countlessly I been through times when I wished I was rather dead
There's just two things that I'm sure about I surely lost my track
And if one day I'm gon leave there ain't no chance I'm coming back

Then you came and I could finally see some light
Though it may just be a spark that flashеd up right before my eyеs
Yea I knew I'd wanna have you by my side
If not until your end at least until my demise

Led me out the dark
Guess you did ignite a spark
I was drowning all my life you helped me get upon your ark
On my soul, you left your mark
Also on my haunted heart
No, it couldn't last forever yes I knew it from the start
Then you lost a part of you the part that made you who you were
I been aware of what she took from you the greatest gift on earth
You wanted to walk this path all with her
And now all you're really left with is an everlasting curse
I been wide awake at night cause you been crying in your sleep I couldn't help but realize I wasn't what you really need
I sadly miss the ability to believe
That she'll one day be here again being able to breathe

I'll be honest with you
You know that life can be cruel
You know that you didn't deserve all that you gotta go through
But now I gotta be true
I just can't bear shit for two
Though I'd be already dead inside if it wasn't for you

And maybe now we're stuck at the end
You always hear about how shitty life can get but underestimate to what an extend
Like you been buried in sand
Like three feet deep with all tied hands