[Lyric] Dead Roses (M3nsv)

I'm knee deep in my zone this ain't just another song
Behind the castle walls their's just too much going on
Lately I've been feeling off
I guess I'm better off
Living life like there ain't no tomorrow
I know you got a long list of shit I should've done
Instead of walking off
I know you think the way I'm living life lately is kind of wrong
I know I met some girls that did me right but the timing was wrong
I know I got issues with my
(Damn I hate that song)
Feel like I'm drifting in and out reality
My state is subconsciously
Dejected off the fuckeries and made believes
Cause the outside looking in ain't always as it seems
My mind state is somewhere outta space staring at the world
Down in the mouth out of my luck, out of sight out of mind
Out of character starstruck is not like one of a kind
Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try
What am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight
They say you reap what you sow
But this is unforeseen
And people fears the unknown
Pessimism got me on spleen
This crazy life of mine can make a grown man cry
I know if I leave I still got niggas steady plotting I die(yuh)
My phone full of texts I ain't been replying lately
Mood swings frequent I'm fed up with rage lately
I ain't even budging to no one's needs
And still I entertain it as if that shit is what I need
The one's like me are the one's that don't like me the most
But I can't hold a grudge longer than I can hold my breath
To all intense and purposes I'm not the like to pigeonhole
Quite frankly I've seen people act like they know how to act
What these bitches want from a nigga
I guess I loved you more when you were still with him
Too much on my plate just means more for dinner
Lord forgive me I'm a fuckin sinner