[Lyric] Decay (Retz one [heartbreak boy ])

So much love , so much distrust
Even tho I wrote stone cold
I still keep her in my heart (I love her)
It’s hard so many girls but
We all seem to fall apart like rubber

I’m stuck in a rut
Waking up surrounded in drugs
I hear my stomach talking
Saying bailey your taking to much

All this shit you put in your lungs
All these pills that you pump
Think of your mum
And how she’s already lost a son

Your son takes drugs
Call it an STD
So many girls sitting
In a bed with me
I feel so loved
So I ain’t getting clean
My last girl left
I still got a pair of
Her shredded jeans
That’s when I realised
What she meant to me
But she was on another dick
As soon as I left the cbd
Went from that chat kid
That no one likes
To this rap king
Gеtting paid for tittie signs

And other stuff
Got me feeling likе cadet
100 phone calls and I’m the slut

I write for my city call me mackavelli
Trying to spread a message
But never getting no Hail Mary
Dms insane so much support
But the hate is heavy

6am I’m awake already
Laying next to this bad ting
And my brain feels steady

I really need love
But I’ll settle for a late night fuck
Because my brains so numb
Constantly fucking with that 2 0 1
I ain’t likely to be loved

Every song that I make
Is a canvas of pain
No one ever seems to relate
To the message I’m trying to say
I’m so poor only got like 50 cents
For the past year I’ve been living in debt
So many men wish me death

The Uber ran out of jet fuel
And now I’m swimming
Like Mac Miller with hurt feelings

White lighters and the 27 club
Jimmy Hendricks Whitney Houston
And the rest above (cobain)

I got bars like nirvana
But no one seems to listen
But trust your gonna
Watch me blow up like teen spirit
I got bars like nirvana
We go harder
Then most artists
Trust your gonna watch me
Blow up like teen spirit