[Lyric] DELUSIONAL (SPAZZKYD)

[Intro: RXZOR]
What the fuck RXZOR?

[Hook: SPAZZKYD]
I be so delusional
I'm lying to myself baby
I know life is beautiful
But I won't ask for help, nah

I be so delusional
And I'm a fucking fuck up, yuh
I know life is beautiful
But feeling like it's fuck love

Used to think I could be something
But I don't really wanna be
Staying by myself
I don't need you, baby, don't you see?

I don't need nobody
I don't fucking let myself need em
I don't need nobody
But my motherfucking soul bleeding
[Verse 1: SPAZZKYD]
Down the highway speeding
Visualizing my own death, yuh
It seems so goddamn peaceful
I wanna take my last breath, yuh

Tell me if you want me
And if you do I'm gon laugh
If you want me you ain't know me
You don't even know the half

You would never wait for me
You'd leave if I was nothing, yuh
I don't want you to look at me
But hoe, I still be stunting, yuh

Leave me be, just let me bleed
Let me see, hoe, let me be
Leave me be, just let me bleed
Don't tell me what the fuck I need

A couple fucking years ago
I didn't need a damn soul
Couple years later
I'm still drowning in that black hole
Lying to myself again
Cuz I know that I need her
If I didn't have her with me
I wouldn't even be here

I be so delusional
I'm lying to myself, yuh
I know life is beautiful
But I won't ask for help, nah

I be so delusional
Tell me why you stay
So fucking delusional
Won't last another day

[Hook: SPAZZKYD]
I be so delusional
I'm lying to myself baby
I know life is beautiful
But I won't ask for help, nah

I be so delusional
And I'm a fucking fuck up, yuh
I know life is beautiful
But feeling like it's fuck love
Used to think I could be something
But I don't really wanna be
Staying by myself
I don't need you, baby, don't you see?

I don't need nobody
I don't fucking let myself need em
I don't need nobody
But my motherfucking soul bleeding

[Verse 2: BEELZ]
Soul bleeding, don't need em
I don't give a motherfuck
Pulling up, bitch
With the motherfucking armored truck

Fucked up
Every day
I can't remember (member)
How sober tastes

And I been sitting in my bedroom
Slitting my wrists
Little bitch, get away
Need some headroom

Fuck
I've been so jaded
I've been just sitting here
Contemplating

Suicide watch
Every single day
Checking the clock
Fading into grey

Sitting in my motherfucking bedroom
Passed out
Fuck it
Xanax in my nostrils

Damn I'm out
I'm so gone
I'm so dead
Can't do no right

Only wrong
When I'm gone
Bitch
Don't show me no damn lights

[Hook: SPAZZKYD]
I be so delusional
I'm lying to myself baby
I know life is beautiful
But I won't ask for help, nah

I be so delusional
And I'm a fucking fuck up, yuh
I know life is beautiful
But feeling like it's fuck love

Used to think I could be something
But I don't really wanna be
Staying by myself
I don't need you, baby, don't you see?

I don't need nobody
I don't fucking let myself need em
I don't need nobody
But my motherfucking soul bleeding

[Hook: SPAZZKYD]
I be so delusional
And I'm a fucking fuck up, yuh
I know life is beautiful
But I won't ask for help, nah

I be so delusional
And I'm a fucking fuck up
I know life is beautiful
But feeling like it's fuck love

Used to think I could be something
But I don't really wanna be
Staying by myself
I don't need you, baby, don't you see?

I don't need nobody
I don't fucking let myself need em
I don't need nobody
But my motherfucking soul bleeding

[Outro: ROSE]
I fucking hate you