[Lyric] Even If I Tried (Knowmads)

Old school corduroy
Sipping goose with my lecroix
Chopping lines up on the table
Guess I’m tryna fill that void
Real McCoy back in Cali
Everyoneknow we dem boys
When I’m in my city
I’m like Kanye out in Illinois
I don’t punch in I’m just hustling
Feds think that I’m unemployed
Ain’t no justice I don’t trust em
Look at what they did Floyd
There ain't nothing to decide
Saying fuck the otherside
Because I can’t hate my neighbor baby
Even if I tried

See that hunger in my eyes
Waiting for the sun to rise
Lord knows I can’t go to sleep with
So much trouble on my mind
Said I’d leave it all behind
Put them substances aside
But still I can’t stop myself sometimes no
Even if I try
Now my homie smoking fentanyl
Fuck it keeps me up at night
Lord knows I can’t go to sleep with
So much trouble in my life
I got money on the line
And that duffel in the ride
Baby I can’t stop that paper calling
Even if I tried
Summer got me drowning in the heat
I’m tryna keep my balance
Running on this bridge
Ain’t nothing I could do to
Kill this sadness
You deserve a ring like Saturn
I been tryna change my patterns
-Time goes on
I’d do anything to turn it backwards

Said I’m better off alone
Know when I told you that I lied
Thoughts of you they jog my memory
Stay running through my mind
And I understand why you don’t wanna see me said that’s fine
But no I can’t live without you baby even if I tried

Truth is hard to swallow
Make me wanna crack the bottle
Pop them pills
Cause I can’t sleep
And wake up here alone tomorrow
You remind me how I left you stranded every single time
You felt abandoned
Said I cannot fix it even if I tried
So you left me at that motel
And you told me book a flight
Then you ghost me when I text you
Just to show me what that’s like
Then you call me up the next day
Just to check if I’m alright
How come we can’t even talk
Without it ending in a fight
Said I’m better off alone
Know when I told you that I lied
Because I can’t can't go to sleep with so much trouble on my mind
And I understand why
You don’t wanna see me said thats fine
But no I can’t live without you baby even if I tried

Don’t gotta act suspicious
I can change said I’ll be different
All we need is money time a place to live
And raise our kids in
Swore that I’d make my dream
Come true and that’s been eating me inside
I don’t know if I could give this up now
Even if I tried
I don’t blame you for the way you feel
No every single time
I kept you waiting chasing saving face
I played you to the side
And I understand why
You don’t wanna see me said thats fine
But no I can’t live without you baby even if I tried

Said I’m better off alone
Know when I told you that I lied
Because I can’t can't go to sleep with so much trouble on my mind
And I understand why
You don’t wanna see me said thats fine
But no I can’t live without you baby even if I tried