[Lyric] Everythings Alright (Conscience (San Antonio))

Look into the mirror and I don’t know what to do
Mama tellin’ me come ‘ere to show me what’s on the news
A kid of 9 years was hiding away the truth from their parents
It appears that he was bullied at school
They found him in his room hanging up from the ceilin’
Momma told me Rodger you better tell me jus’ how you feelin’
I laughed “Momma you don’t gotta worry ‘bout a thing”
Gave a kiss, caught my bus and I cried along the way

I was getting picked on in the lunch line
All my friends ate and I ain’t ever touch mine
While my girls ‘round with another guy
Dark thoughts started weighing on my young mind
But I ain’t еver been the type to go and unwind
So if you ask my rеply is just “I’m fine”
Until I get home and my mind doesn’t comply
I just lie in my bed and just lie in my head

Everything’s alright
No sleeping, it replays all night
No eating, only take small bites
No speaking, keep my jaw locked tight
Momma asking, “Everything alright?”
I smile, “Everything’s alright”
I promise everything’s alright, everything’s alright”
Yeah I’m fine
Everything’s alright
It’s ok
Don’t worry ‘bout it
It’s all good

I’ve tried and I’ve tried, I don’t think I can do it
Only thing by my side is my momma and music
And I know that she gonna cry, maybe never get through it
But then I don’t wanna be alive and death is telling me to prove it
Bullies telling me “do it”, teachers think that I’m stupid
My nightmares turn to dreams then get more lucid and lucid
Feel like a waste of a human, my friends find it amusing
So I just hope they get a laugh at what I’m about to go through with

Open the drawer and I find
A boxcutter and slide it down my wrist
And let the blood run and spill off the sides
I scream and I cry ‘cause yes it hurts to die
But I can slowly feel the pain make its way out of my mind
I’m sorry that I wasn’t good enough for you guys
And strong enough to fight the pain
So I’m saying goodbye
As my life subsides, I close my eyes
And just lie in my bed and just lie in my head
Everything’s alright
No sleeping, it replays all night
No eating, only take small bites
No speaking, keep my jaw locked tight
Momma asking, “Everything alright?”
I smile, “Everything’s alright”
I promise everything’s alright, everything’s alright”