[Lyric] Failure Girl (Oktavia)

[Verse 1]
Look at that, I made a mistake again
You can tell I’ve lost count with the red pen
It’s a fact, theses scars still reveal
Despite how I’ve tried forcing them to heal

See with that, they say ignorance is bliss
Playing dumb, I’ve really gotten good at this
It’s a fact, they’ll say whatever ‘bout me
How I’m unwanted and loved by nobody

[Pre-Chorus]
Bruised before you, the pain the pain
Have to push through the pain the pain
Bid my breath adieu, the pain, the pain hurts so

[Chorus]
Everybody tells mе I’m a failure, there’s no rеason to even show me love
No matter whatever I do, it falls short of enough
I-I-I just have to try and fake through the whole way
If I smile abidingly, would then it be okay?
[Verse 2]
Look at that, seems I’ve scraped my skin again
You can tell I’ve lost count of times fallen
It’s a fact, theses traumas still reveal
Despite all my tries to still conceal

See with that, I’ll pretend nothing’s amiss
Holding it in, I’ve gotten good at this
It’s a fact, they’ll say whatever they think
I feel their hatred covering me

[Pre-Chorus]
With choking feelings, I’m quaking quaking
Self loathing, I’m shaking shaking
Suffocating, still faking faking I’m whole

[Chorus]
Everybody tells me I’m a failure, there’s no reason to even show me love
No matter whatever I do, I’ll still be the victim
I-I-I still wonder why I breathe in the first place
If I smile more naturally, would that make it all okay?

[Instrumental]

[Outro]
God if you’re there listening to my song, then please, I want to be reborn worthy
They say you don’t make mistakes, so do you just hate me?
Crying my eyes dry, my heartbeat turns to a lullaby
Maybe, maybe, when morning comes, I’ll smile for the first time
So my life of failed attempts
‘Till tomorrow, goodbye