[Lyric] FEBRUARY 4 (mason infinity)

[Intro]
February 4th, 2020
I couldn't hide anymore

[Verse 1]
So many things that I could say
I'm writing them down
I'm running down the sidewalk
All these thoughts run through my head
And I think back, I was so sad back then
The words came out my mouth
And everything changed
A lot can change in one year
I'd take it back if I could, but I know

[Chorus]
It's gonna be alright, it's gonna be alright
I'll see you on the next side, I'll see you on the next side
Some call me crazy, I'm just optimistic
I'm taking the backseat, don't mess with the vision
[Verse 2]
And so I'm hating myself, I'm loving the limelight
I act like I have one
I'm stuck in my hindsight
But it's gon' be alright
But it's gon' be alright (Alright)
But it's gon' be alright
Sick of left and right, I spent the night
I hate my life (Oh, wouldn't you)
I got home and I caved in, I took my fan all sweatin'
I went to sleep, and again, I wake up and I'm in Hell
That's where my life really started
We connected with friends that I thought I had departed
Talk 'bout this in my last song
I fell into love, and I fell so deep
I couldn't shove it off, I think that I'm going crazy
I'm not optimistic, I'm so pessimistic
'Cause they told me I'm gifted, I don't have a gift
I have a brain with a bullet-sized hole in the side
Last October I was really close to

[Outro]
Oh, yeah
I'm not optimistic, but I'm on the top and I finally get it
I finally get it, I'm not optimistic