[Lyric] Firedragon3651 Logs Out For Good (Kid, Feral)

Autumn
You were losing your vision again
Dead high on morphine for pain
It's weird to see you withering

Will I ever see your face here again?
Or are you bound to your hospital bed?
How do I even know what words I should say?
"It's been too long since we talked, you ok?"

Here we go again
In my dreams at night
You're standing next to me
And when you comfort me
There's not a moment that feels like reality

I'm not ready
I don't want closure
There's nothing of value, there's nothing to learn it's fucking pointless
Just so worthless
Disheartening hysteria
Malignant and madening
It's breaking me apart

And there's nothing to hope for
And the autumn turned winter
It's still in your head

And I wait for disaster
When you're worried sick
Hopeless
Hopeless
We're in the deep

When I think I get heartsick
I just want to puke
Cancer
Heart beats faster