[Lyric] Fish tank (June Henry)

I've been in the fish tank all week
You've been peering in at me
Showing off your accolades
Showing off your pretty teeth
I felt the sense of fuzziness
The sense I don't belong
The sense that everything I've done has been so bad and wrong
Feeling like a frantic kid
Who still fully believes fully in magic
Bookmarking, manifestation, checking spam, notification

When does the fog lift?
When does the trick end?
When do I stop feeling freakish
In a room full of my closest friends?
When does the noise stop?
When do my eyes close?
When does the shoe drop?
When do I get home?

Growing out my fingernails
Biting back my teeth
I rid myself of all awareness
Its all keratin to me
Remembering how warm I felt
Curled up next to him
And how I didn't hate myself
The way I told myself I did
When does the fog lift?
When does the trick end?
When do I stop feeling freakish
In a room full of my closest friends?
When does the noise stop?
When do my eyes close?
When does the shoe drop?
When do I get home?