[Lyric] Fluctuate (Cacti (UK))

In the middle of the night
Calling a taxi
Finished two bottles
And get in the back seat
Paranoid
Everyone's looking at me

It's the middle of the night
And it's getting cold out
We said we'd stay till dawn
So we hold out
Somehow the silence
Drowns my thoughts out

Didn't choose to be alive
But I've got to fight now
Just turned 1
They put all the lights out
He offered up another bottle
And we might as well
In the middle of the night
Just walking around
Finding places we can sit
Wherе we won't be found
If we need sleep, wе can just pass out
On the ground

I fluctuate emotions
Half the time I find myself broken
Half the time I have happy
Plastered on
But it can flip in a second
Watch your fucking tongue

Sometimes I feel
Like I'm suffocating
Be here or fuck off
I'm tired of waiting
I won't ask for help
But I need saving

Happy's never happy
Cause there's always a downfall
And it always seems to lead
To a hellhole
To be honest, at this point
It's probably my fault
My plan is live hard
And die before 30
Just stay numb enough
That no one can hurt me
Give me a cig and a drink
And don't disturb me

If I could start again
I'd like to say I would
But I really don't care
As much as I should
And I don't try hard enough
To be the person that I could

I fluctuate emotions
Half the time I find myself broken
Half the time I have happy
Plastered on
But it can switch in a second
Watch your fucking tongue

I feel that sinking feeling
Coming on
I find it hard to admit
When I'm wrong
I feel so mean
But they say that the good die young
I guess the bad die
Of blacked out lungs
I guess the bad try
But not enough
Cause we're damaged
And afraid of love
I'm confused
And don't want you to give me up
I hate my head and moods
They tear me apart