[Lyric] Forever Aware (The Real JBrown)

[verse]
It sucks to be so
Depressed, distant
And feel so different and anxious
Every instant -I can remember being conscious..
My subconscious is blistered

Scary to be aware
That I'm bearing the only witness
To my own depression - and retrogression
Holding onto old obsessions -and unethical methods
To my social death

Trust me
This uncomfortably ugly something
Has been stuck to me - Like a Fuckin' leach!
-sucking the fun from me
For so long it legit feels natural to be drawn into dim light
-like a street light to a moth

I'm exhausted, Lost
Cold & damp so I'm often frosted
So hard
It's so hard
To find a cause to provide the confidence to feel like..
I can go on any longer

Its torturous
Can't take much more of this
I'm sore and tormented
From the torture and torment of forging a war with myself
Waking up in the morning never felt more like a chore

[Hook]
It's like I was
Shot out in space, with no target to hit
No one around to slow me down or stop while ahead
I'm forever floating

Tripped on the pavement as I started the Race
Fell on my face tryin to gather my steps
I'm forever Falling

Just give me one good reason to live
Help me find the price to buy the things that we feel
I'm forever hopeless

I'm forever floating
I'm forever floating
Falling..
Hopeless!
[Verse]
People prolly avoiding them
Well I do, I mean sort of
So ya know I'm really sorry but heh
I ain't got the angst to give a little bit of a shit about yours. Hopefully you won't be so sore when I implore this. Post chorus
I dont really care for another another annoyance
And a voice so hoarse when their forcing their 10 cents
Plain n simple
Penny 4 your thoughts. I dont think so..

Id really much more enjoyably can't afford it
Penny for your thots? I dont think so
Cause I'm so bored with these
Bitches and the bars
Double clicking shit for rewards
..All my friends got addictions and uh..

I deserve much more than I'm getting
Credited for and as a martyr to this music
I just wanna help others n influence
So Understand the fame and change ain't why I do this
But I just wanna run through shit when I watch the awards

I Thank God for my kids, and these sounds
That allow me an outlet to give to you
Now you know
[Hook]
It's like I was
Shot out in space, with no target to hit
No one around to slow me down or stop while ahead
I'm forever floating

Tripped on the pavement as I started the Race
Fell on my face tryin to gather my steps
I'm forever falling

Just give me one good reason to live
Help me find the price to buy the things that we feel
I'm forever hopeless

I'm forever floating
I'm forever floating
Falling..
Hopeless!

No, you're never gonna take this from me