[Lyric] ​garden in the sky (mutual feelings)

Phone call at 11 pm
You were drunk and you wrecked your car
You were crying
I had to drug you to sleep
These days, I'm feeling so disposable
No way to cry out for help
Can anybody even hear me anyway?
I'm so tired
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't know how to to be without you
But I know I have got to go and find my own way

I'm running from the inside out

My brain is filled with maggots
They whisper to me in my sleep
Oh dear, what will you do now?
I wish I could give them a fucking answer
But I don't know anything other than I'm tired
Of the repetition, I won't do this
I can take this on my own
It's been enough, I need my growth
Find my garden in the sky, and I'll go
I'll go
I'll go
And I'll go