[Lyric] Gazing (Young Midas)

[Verse 1]
Nah, help me God, cause you know I can't save it
I'm your only patient with my hands tied
Hoping I get lit, hope I get it
Money get sick, know I break shit, yeah
Sold my angels for some angel dust
I was gone before going out the dusk
Before having it for lust
Killing it for last
Praying with my demons so I won't get bust
So I won't get shot, yeah
Smoking's getting ratatat
Devils made a psychopath
I don't have my own path
Thoughts going bad
One day - hope I come back
Got a chance, gave up, hits missed
I'm in a crossfire like an asterisk
Reality ain't the thing for me
Daydrеaming, suicide can't keep up with me
[Bridge; Lil' Wayne & Emmanuel Acho]
How I knew I had mеntal problems was I pulled the trigger
You actually pulled the trigger?
Yeah, I pulled the trigger
Where'd you- where'd you shoot?
In my chest. Didn't feel it, aimed for my heart and I didn't feel a thing tho. So I wasn't going through any pain. It was the shock. I woke up to boom, boom, boom, to the police knocking

[Chorus]
I'm gazing
Ending habits makes a man go crazy
Starin' the abyss always fades me
Dreaming of the end, I might meet Hades
Blaze it
See, I'm gazing
Ending habits makes a man go crazy
Starin' the abyss always fades me
Dreaming of the end, I might meet Hades
Hades

[Verse 2]
Look, I can't help it, always feel helpless
Even in my best days, the cage makes me restless
I've been going 9 through 5 so I can make some cash, ay
Sitting all alone, maybe it is for the best, ay
7 days drinking, hemorrhaging, blood spitting
Pain driven, listen, listen, listen, nah
A non-believer keeps praying every day
And reefer keeps my heart contained
Mania like I'm stuck on replay