[Lyric] Gloomy (Adajio)

[Intro]
Sometimes it just feels like
One of those days
It's been one of those weeks
One of those months
One of those years
Shit, one of those lifetimes

[Verse]

I'm getting bent cause I'm broken
I hope you ain't notice I'm smoking
My dopamine levels is lower than hell
So I rolled up some dope in this L
I inhale cause I'm scared I'ma blow it
I hope I don't show it tho
I hope you don't ignore it tho
Lately my life been a rodeo
Somebody's choreographing the shit that bе happening to me
Shit ain't just rapping, I'm going thru hell
God is laughing at mе, I can tell
I can't find my way to the top
I'm surrounded by people who'd probably record if I fell
I don't wanna fail
But I'm drowning in expectations
All my jobs are thankless
I been working hard, cause I can't miss no payments
I thought growing up meant things would be more painless
Now I'm numb to everything except for pain
It's kinda crazy ain't it
Paint a picture for me
Of what life could be like when I'm in my forties
I don't picture me making it to my 30s
I done hit the bottom in my early twenties
I thought 18 was bad but this shit is worse
I was 17 when I was in a hearse
And since then I been living in purgatory
I been searching for purpose in every verse
Hope I find my meaning so I Rest In Peace
Only time I'm at ease is when I'm asleep
Close the windows and doors
Don't wanna hear no peeping
Out these people outside I'm not tryna speak with
I don't speak what they speak
I don't think I can think how they think
I think I need to see me a shrink
Think I'm overthinking again
All these thoughts doing laps in my mind every time that I blink
I blow the heem to slow my dreams
The neighbors say I stink
I rather that than sip the 'gac
My daddy used to drink
I feel his blood running through me
I think this bottle gone do me
I'd rather light up this doobie
That's how I justify
These days I pray someone shoot me
Don't know what gotten into me
This stress be making me gloomy
That's why I must get high