[Lyric] Gray (Romantic Theory)

I’m sick of myself and stewing in my personal hell
Pretending I’m together and I have a plan
When I start to trip and stumble at the lightest demand

Breaking jars of my thoughts
That I was cleverly hiding on the shelf
Cause when I’m thinking I can hardly stand
My body is weak when my brain is in your hands

I want to look at you as just a friend
But when you’re in my face I’m on a rope
And I am dangling at the very end
I don’t wanna bend what we have until it breaks
Cause there’s no black and white with you and I
All these feelings are so gray

I put a lid on it, hid it under my bed
Continued sleeping on all of the things I said
Because I don’t wanna face the stench
It hangs in the air and smells of regret
Then at the same time, don’t want to tread the line
The ice is always thin, but I don’t want to swim
Because it’s always cold when you get out
And I don’t wanna shiver while I drop with doubt

I want to look at you as just a friend
But when you’re in my face I’m on a rope
And I am dangling at the very end
I don’t wanna bend what we have until it breaks
Cause there’s no black and white with you and I
All these feelings are so gray

Everytime I see you it almost feels great
But I keep stepping on the little shards, getting confused by the pain
I don’t want to speak the truth cause you may hate.. me
Cause it’s never black and white with you
Everything is fucking gray