[Lyric] Happiness Is Temporary Pain Is Forever (TT17)

[Verse]
Heartbreak, heartbreak
Let's point a gun at my chest and see how much my heart takes
Lookin' like I wanna go down and move far away
Lookin' like I wanna tell my boys I'm gone for good
Lookin' like I can't, but I really, really wish I could
Lookin' like I wanna cry, and I really think I should
I got too much of a name, with the fame, this a game
I'm always standing out, but it turns out she thought I'm lame (it turns out she thought I'm lame)
Lookin' at the past, I got way too much to lose
I wanna run up numbers, and then blow up like a fuse
One day, I wanna put a post, and say "I'm done with everything"
I'm sick of pourin' out my heart on this mic for views
You look at me? I'm confident
I'm down in life, I'm lost in it
I wanna share my love, one day Ima be known
I wanna be known, I think I want numbers
I'm sick of feelin' under
This rap game? I'm shockin' it!
I'm shockin' it, I guess I'm like electricity
She don't know how I feel, this pain up, up in me
They call me a light switch, the way pain flips in me
Flips in me, she trickin' me, I don't know what to say
I just want December nights again, so I can see the rain
I felt so good, now I'm feelin' so much pain
I don't think it's depression, but I'm feelin' so much pain
Pain in my brain, summer made it go away
Graduation made it go away, man, I hope that it don't stay
I just need these thoughts to run far, far away
Run away like Usain, before I really go insane
Nothing's gonna be the same, I just want to be saved
I'm a man on a mission, and that mission is to win
God, watch me over, cuz I really wanna sin
I'll do what it'll take, cuz I really wanna win
I really wanna win, God, I really wanna win
I wanna look down at all of my supporters
Give 'em all a hug, and say "This what made me harder"
"You turned me into who I am, and I'm forever grateful"
I'm in a bad state of mind, California, I'm so stateful
I wanna open up to people about how I feel
I feel like I'm layered, like my skin is gonna peel
I'm sick of worrying about who I'm 'gon appeal
I'm sick of worrying about if I'm good enough
I'm sick of second guessing if I'ma put out stuff
I've been grindin' with Felando, they don't know 'bout us
But I'd bet about a rack, that the world 'gon doubt us
They 'gon try to clown us
We won't let 'em clown us
Royalty things, I'm on royalty sings
We 'gon make a hit and live like royalty kings
I swear on my life, that I'ma shock the world
With chains on my neck, 'gon buy a girl pearls
I had a girl in my life, and I think she broke my heart
She made a mistake, cuz my name is on the charts
My name is TT, that's TT17
My name used to be "Most Hated" , now I think it's got a ring
I think it's got a ring, like it's name is Coach K
These girls hit my line, and I tell 'em "Go away!"
I need me a girl who swear that she 'gon stay
When I'm at my lowest, and when I'm really down
I need me a girl who'll turn me upside down
My frown, days brown, I gotta stay down
"Stay down with my face down" , remember that gem?
I used to go for threes, now my DM's full of tens