[Lyric] How tf am i even here right now? (HXSTAGE)

The more that I'm asleep the less I'm in pain
I keep on running from the mistakes that I made
He talkin' crazy so he get put on display
Can't give a fuck about anything I'm in pain every day

I feel like hurting myself
I feel like downing the bottle I fuckin keep on the shelf
Don't feel like anything helps so this the only way
I like to suffer in silence so people stay away

I'on really care about nothing except when I get paid
I'on like this place I wanna disappear wanna get away
I took half a eddie got 20 until I fade away
Please don't bother speaking not hearing a single word you say

The more that I'm asleep the less I'm in pain
I keep on running from the mistakes that I made
He talkin crazy so he get put on display
Can't give a fuck about anything I'm in pain every day

I feel like hurting myself
I feel like downing the bottle I fuckin keep on the shelf
Don't feel like anything helps so this the only way
I like to suffer in silence so people stay away