[Lyric] Humanize Me // Ice (After The Summer)

If I found destruction
Would you believe if I said I didn't want it
If I found salvation
I bet I fight but I go right through the gates
And you didn’t love me
I see that now but I know it makes sense too
I didn't know you
I thought I did but I never even tried to
I want ruin
But only if its in my style
If I can control the burn
I want destruction
But only if destroy everything causing me pain
I hate existence
But only if I am weak
And I'm so fucking weak
I want forgivness
Cause I think my shit is bigger than all of your pain

I talk to god now
He says he hates me but I know he loves me so
Im like his favorite
At lеast thats what I say and I guess it’s what I hope
I try to hurt him
I used to want to lovе death and I know I did
But I'm not allowed to
Guess that sums up what, what path I took
I hate my sister
I think she scares me cause she never left my side
I love my mother
But I don't care for her and that's a big weight to loose
I hate my brother but he's too cool for me to cut him off right this time
I hate my best friend, I wish that snake had some balls maybe then I'd like