[Lyric] Hurtlines (Alabaster)

I never meant this safe space of mine to wear me down
I painted a million heartless faces not knowing mine
Unaware, anywhere in between, but never there
Everybody knows who is the heir of all their rotten roses

If someone could teach me how to feel
I’d claim the names in my heartlines
If somehow dark matter disappeared
Then so would I with my hurt lines
With clean hands over turbid thoughts

I never thought I’d feel safe far from my dungeon mind
Here 'tween the cracks of my hypocrisy, clearly blind
Unaware, anywhere in between, but never there
Don’t nobody show who was the source of all their burning burdens

If someone could teach me how to feel
I’d claim the names in my heartlines
If somehow dark matter disappeared
Then so would I with my hurt lines
With clean hands over turbid thoughts
Flashes of intermittent clarity
My unconsciousness unfolds

We, we all vex ourselves, it’s how we live
Punishing each other, oh

Heaven’s not meant for me, meant for me, meant for me
(Rip my hands, take my eyes and fill my heart)

Heaven’s not meant for me, meant for me, meant for me

If someone could teach me how to feel
I’d claim the names in my heartlines
If somehow dark matter disappeared
Then so would I with my hurt lines
With clean hands over turbid thoughts