[Lyric] I Promise You Im Trying (Atlas Music)

I know what I'm doing isn't the smartest thing to do
But it's the only way I can get over you
I've tried so much but this is the only thing that works
I know it's unhealthy but it's the only thing to calm the hurt

I've flipped the table of my mind
Hiding from the imaginary gunman
He just walked right inside
He said his name is depression
There's nothing hiding me
From the lies that I believe
All the lies
That he tries
To kill me

Slowly the image fades away
As soon as i breathe in
Everything gеts cloudier
Once again
It's the only way I know how
To not lеt him in
When my mind is filled with smoke
He knows
But kicking him out let another one in
He says his names Anxiety
He says I need more then this
I breathe in another few times
Full of smoke and a death wish
He whispers in my ear more lies
That i start to believe in

I've flipped the table of my mind
Hiding from the imaginary gunman
He just walked right inside
He said his name is Anxiety
There's nothing hiding me
From the lies that I believe
All the lies
That he tries
To kill me

As soon as i stopped filling my lungs with smoke
They both came creeping back in
They started yelling at me like I'm a joke
They brought up every sin
The way they sounded, i swore
Sounded like a damn war
Telling me I'd never be enough
I'd never measure up
So when you tell me I shouldn't
Do this to myself
When you say I'm foolish
For forgetting who I was
I say to you
Don't be fooled
Those who do this type of thing
Are the few who can't believe
Anything you say to them
No matter if it's true

I've tried other things
Like therapy and legal shit
But the only thing that works
Is the thing that makes me forget who I am
I promise you
I'm trying