[Lyric] I slept better at night with the false belief that you loved me (OXYHEAD)

Stressing now I’m caved in
Can't describe the mental state I’m in

These pills got wondering what state I’m in

Teachers hate me cause I won’t behave for shit

Guess it’s just a personal issue, i swear to fucking god if you didn’t give me birth i would hit you

And it still woudnt make up for the nights that I wished you
Loved me more than these pills do

It’s all good tho I get it , yeah I learned to accept it, I’ll never be more than mediocrе and best mainly

But that I get that your eyеs are always neglected I’ll never forget it

Please don’t try to love me when I’m doing better cause I don’t wanna hear from you again

Ever, ever again

Another cold December watching all my siblings under the tree, receiving all these presents
I don’t get nothing my moms holding grudge I know she isn’t forgetting

I felt like a ghost since I was at least 11

Non of that matters tho, and if It did I’d be considered narcissistic for thinking I deserve a spot in a family picnic or any of these pictures

I could write essays , and scriptures, about all the sad sketches and figures I drew in elementary that got me sent to the principals

Another lecture about how i’m forgetting the principles

And coping woudnt do a damn thing even if they were printable

I’m just being cynical I guess that’s why I’m miserable

Depression makes me do the fucking unthinkable

These percs makes me feel invisible

Can't believe you don’t even claim me as a song, I would kill for you