[Lyric] I Want To Be Alone And Not To Be Alone Both At The Same Time (Father Malcolm Boyd)

I want to be alone and not to be alone, both at the same time
I can't stand anybody being around at this moment
The sound of another voice seems to cut into my aching flesh
I want to be alone
I crave silence, even a vacuum
And endless echo chamber of silence upon silence, upon silence
Cold, alone, silence

But the silence is filled with demons, Lord
So that I'm not alone at all
I'm with demons
And I'd rather be with othеr people, Jesus, than with you
I'vе thought it out and this is what I want
Will you help me cut loose from these demons?
So I can be with you and the other people
I feel so cold and I want to warm myself by a fire, Lord
Please give me the fire to thaw out the icy coldness inside me
Warm me, Jesus
So I can give out some real warmth to some other very cold people