[Lyric] I was only 19 when I realized u would kill me (Nickisgonenow)

[Chorus: Nickisgonenow]
I was down bad but I got back up
What more can I say, I always had bad luck
As it all goes [?] you’ll have to face yourself
I can feel it fading in my mental health
Count me out
Put me out my fucking misery
So the maggots can eat
I never mattered any
But I loved you plenty

I was only nineteen, when I realized you would kill me
You were only playing pretend
I won’t see the best until the end

I was down bad but I got back up
What more can I say, I always had bad luck
As it all goes [?] you’ll have to face yourself
I can feel it fading in my mental health
Count me out
Put me out my fucking misery
So the maggots can eat
I never mattered any
But I loved you plenty
I was only nineteen, when I realized you would kill me
You were only playing pretend
I won’t see the best until the end