[Lyric] Im Crying And Shouting Inside Tonight Lord And Im Feeling Completely Alone (Father Malcolm Boyd)

I'm crying and shouting inside tonight Lord
And I'm feeling completely alone
All the roots I thought I had are gone
Everything in my life is in an upheaval
I'm amazed I can maintain any composer when I'm feeling like this
The moment is all that matters
The present moment is of supreme importance
I know this, and yet in the present I feel dead
I want to anchor myself in the past and shed tears of self pity
When I look ahead tonight
I can see only futility, pain and death
I'm only a rotting body, a vessel of disease
Potentially a handful of ashes after I'm burned
But you call me tonight to love and responsibility
You have a job for me to do
You make me look at other persons
whose needs make my self pity and mockery in a disgrace
Lord, I hear you
I know you
I feel your presence strongly in this awful moment
And I thank you
Help me onto my feet
Help me to get up