[Lyric] ​in love with the poltergeist (Cavasoul, jaden, & re:)

[Verse 1: Cavasoul]
How sad can I get until I don't care?
Until it gets old but my soul hurts, not fair
My friends left, now they're miles away
The other ones suck, hear them lyin' to my face
All the fires I ignited burn out, leavin' ashes
I kept the flame alive, I'm not the one who brought the matches
I don't wanna die because that ending would be tragic
Red inside my body, getting ready for a casket
Compassion, who was askin'?
Need help but I like to take my chances
Sometimеs I idolize vanishin' like magic
Now I can't sleep from attacks that I'm havin'
I feel fine whеn I'm not alone
Then I feel I could die when I'm stuck at home
Those effects from anxiety spreading
Barely holdin' on, lookin' forward to an ending, ending

[Verse 2: re:]
Yeah, if you don't wanna talk about it
Then keep your head down 'cause I'm shooting that shit automatic
A lotta pressure is my life, can call it animatic
Taking ends and popping heads, I plan on leaving bodies static, uh
You don't even know me
Talk a lotta shit and motherfucker you can blow me
Sip a lotta dick, that's espresso to your—
Two bad bitches, that's two more than you can show me
Homie tried to threaten so I pulled up to that addy
And I emptied out a clip on him and hopped into a taxi
Then the gang is tellin' me to kill this fuckin' brakence beat
Like Shinigami, grab my death note when I'm takin' a sheet
Exploding lead, my thoughts were painted on the walls last week
I'm suicidal but that don't mean that my bars are weak
I need a break from reality on acid
Got it from a friend, the same one that sold at Astrid, asterisk
Went a little too hard and I passed you
Went from hitting you up to a milli in the past tense
Started makin' nothing but on this song, makin' mad sense
If you wanna act hard little bitch we know you fla—
[Verse 3: lyrah]
You're watching me so constantly
It's my cigarette, so what?
And it's so hard to be so audibly
When we're not what I want
And now you're on to me, so hard to leave
You want me there to die
And then you wanna be so [?]
You fakin' but it's time
And it's so daunting, it's all you
Inside me, got no clue
And you told me "I need you"
You're sorry you're so rude
And we're just kids [?]
What you do is not cool
And you hate me, I hate you
I'm now free so fuck you

[Verse 4: Sxdtune]
Wrote in my diary, now I heal all these scars
Tell me you love me and I'll never fall apart
You know that I am strong, got nothing else to lose
But baby I'm lying, already capped, I'm on this noose
Yeah, let me drown in my blood and see you smile
You're not gonna see me next time
But I hate myself
I'm always something that you're pulling down
(I'm always something that you're pulling down)
[Verse 5: jaden]
I constantly tried to get you on my side
But you just need yourself
You don't want any help, no
And when you left suburban life
You turned back on the bourbon twice
Yeah, you always just fuckin' lie
You really needed me this time
But that's alright
'Cause at least I tried (At least I tried)
Before you give it all to die
But we don't know where any of us go
Where do flowers even grow in a place we feel alone?