[Lyric] In Retrospect (Ivory Rasmus)

[Intro}
I'll tell you all my lies
Want me living right
But I can't do that
Everybody's tried
Since my sister died, nothing's working
I take all my pills
You give me my thrills
But I can't change
Runs inside the pain
Was it all in vain?

I was seeking love
Too ready to run
Beat you to the exit like it's fun
What did I just do?
It all fell through
Ate a loaded gun
Haven't seen the sun in days
Since you said "I never loved you"

You'd understand why you should go
You know my plans to die
And when you leave you'll know
I'm sorry for the sacrifice


No one understands
If they do, they'll tеll that I'm committed
I might cry for help
Nothing makes mе well
It just gives munitions
Life's a living hell
I don't wanna pull you through each condition
I'll admit my wrongs
Just make a couple songs
Maybe I'll feel different

I need to fight my past
Need to find the reason that I'm so distant
I grew up abused
I was always used
By people I call friends
I can't find the bounds
We won't make it out
Too far down

Do you forgive me?
No pity
To know that you need the space
Oh, I'm just keeping you safe
Please don't forgive me
That's just [?]
And you don't [?]
(And you don't [?})

[Outro]
Ugh, God damn