[Bridge: Counsellor]
So Chris, it sounds like you're struggling a bit with figuring out what exactly you want. You enjoy the time you spend with others, to a point. But you also crave aloneness, perhaps a place to process your thought and ideas? But you seem to think that being isolated doesn't actually help either? Am I understanding you correctly?
[Verse 1: White Noise]
I'm a fairly private person, it takes a lot for me to open up
I can be reserved in a group setting, but if we're intimate I won't shut up
I mean why do I write lyrics? I'm only talking to my own mind
Even though I love everyone, I might request to be left behind
A little break I need to take from the hectic times
The only problem is: without deep connection, I'll never be satisfied
I'm like Alexander Hamilton, and isolation is Mariah
Maybe it's just a lapse, maybe I'm born to be a pariah
When the morning gleams through the blinds, I'll break my dream of monophobia
I'm lying beside an angel, who's wings are metaphorical
She's a butterfly dancing among the flowers
She counts her blessings for hours, I just count the hours
People fascinate me, but they also exhaust me
Fun feels like work too often, I scoff as I oscillate along the cross beams
I can always read what others are thinking and feeling
Ironically it's myself that I can't figure out enough for healing
[Bridge: Counsellor]
Very interesting. You're clearly quite ambiverted - I mean you're somewhere in the middle of needing socialization and needing isolation to recharge. Maybe we should unpack why you experience both of these feelings. Would you identify as more logical or more emotional? Or somewhere in between?
[Verse 2: White Noise]
I'm deeply compassionate, but I can be logical and cold
I feel for you, but I also get trapped in an analytical hold
I'm creative but practical, factual and rational
But I'm also way too sensitive; if they hurt me, I lash out at them
I'm a bit of a perfectionist, but I miss the small details
Always fixed in the big picture, so my focus is unequal
My head spends a lot of time in the clouds, questioning deities
I'm uncomfortable without a plan, but I value spontaneity
It seems like what makes me uncomfortable is what often helps
Like I can break my chain of thought if I can challenge myself
If I'm too uncomfortable I might chose to drink
Something about the physical pleasure that allows me not to think
But pressure isn't always external
I get uncomfortable in groups or too long alone with my journal
I'm like Tyler, the Creator, the way I'm paradoxical
I don't have to eat a cockroach to feel awful though
[Bridge: Counsellor]
It sounds like you need a challenge, a change maybe. It seems like the further you go into your comfort zone, the more anxious you become. I think you feel guilty. I think you feel like you're not accomplishing enough when you're too comfortable. You need to remember that getting rest is not only acceptable, but it's necessary. For better or for worse, you're the only one who can decide whether your resting or indulging. But I do believe that if you push yourself you will be happier. And the discomfort that you feel when you step out of your comfort zone will start to alleviate. Like a muscle, your comfort zone will only expand with practice
So Chris, it sounds like you're struggling a bit with figuring out what exactly you want. You enjoy the time you spend with others, to a point. But you also crave aloneness, perhaps a place to process your thought and ideas? But you seem to think that being isolated doesn't actually help either? Am I understanding you correctly?
[Verse 1: White Noise]
I'm a fairly private person, it takes a lot for me to open up
I can be reserved in a group setting, but if we're intimate I won't shut up
I mean why do I write lyrics? I'm only talking to my own mind
Even though I love everyone, I might request to be left behind
A little break I need to take from the hectic times
The only problem is: without deep connection, I'll never be satisfied
I'm like Alexander Hamilton, and isolation is Mariah
Maybe it's just a lapse, maybe I'm born to be a pariah
When the morning gleams through the blinds, I'll break my dream of monophobia
I'm lying beside an angel, who's wings are metaphorical
She's a butterfly dancing among the flowers
She counts her blessings for hours, I just count the hours
People fascinate me, but they also exhaust me
Fun feels like work too often, I scoff as I oscillate along the cross beams
I can always read what others are thinking and feeling
Ironically it's myself that I can't figure out enough for healing
[Bridge: Counsellor]
Very interesting. You're clearly quite ambiverted - I mean you're somewhere in the middle of needing socialization and needing isolation to recharge. Maybe we should unpack why you experience both of these feelings. Would you identify as more logical or more emotional? Or somewhere in between?
[Verse 2: White Noise]
I'm deeply compassionate, but I can be logical and cold
I feel for you, but I also get trapped in an analytical hold
I'm creative but practical, factual and rational
But I'm also way too sensitive; if they hurt me, I lash out at them
I'm a bit of a perfectionist, but I miss the small details
Always fixed in the big picture, so my focus is unequal
My head spends a lot of time in the clouds, questioning deities
I'm uncomfortable without a plan, but I value spontaneity
It seems like what makes me uncomfortable is what often helps
Like I can break my chain of thought if I can challenge myself
If I'm too uncomfortable I might chose to drink
Something about the physical pleasure that allows me not to think
But pressure isn't always external
I get uncomfortable in groups or too long alone with my journal
I'm like Tyler, the Creator, the way I'm paradoxical
I don't have to eat a cockroach to feel awful though
[Bridge: Counsellor]
It sounds like you need a challenge, a change maybe. It seems like the further you go into your comfort zone, the more anxious you become. I think you feel guilty. I think you feel like you're not accomplishing enough when you're too comfortable. You need to remember that getting rest is not only acceptable, but it's necessary. For better or for worse, you're the only one who can decide whether your resting or indulging. But I do believe that if you push yourself you will be happier. And the discomfort that you feel when you step out of your comfort zone will start to alleviate. Like a muscle, your comfort zone will only expand with practice
( White Noise (CAN) )
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