[Lyric] Instability pt2 (Majoraeclipse)

(And I wish that we could try it til I'm-)
(Til I'm worth it)

And I don't get why I care
Life ain't ever been fair
I break from what I expect
But I ain't gonna settle for less
There's no way to freeze if I'm heading straight for the sun
That's the only way I'll feel warm
After everything that's been said
Cuz I spoke with an angel but I cannot go back
Guess I really gotta face my problems at last

Gotta face my problems
Let the ghost get a hold of the brain he's molded
What I was told was the safest option
Had my thoughts burst out when I couldn't bottle them up right

Twist my words, leave me tongue-tied
Reconciling with my brain at night
Because I'm bad at lying, it's alright
(Should've seen that in foresight)
And I'm so self-shattering
And even if I changed everything
It just won't stop happening again
Cuz I leave me vulnurable
So if you wanna treat me horrible
I would still be longing for your hand

And I don't get why I care
Life ain't ever been fair
I break from what I expect
But I ain't gonna settle for less
There's no way to freeze if I'm heading straight for the sun
That's the only way I'll feel warm
After everything that's been said
Cuz I spoke with an angel but I cannot go back
Guess I really gotta face my problems at last

Don't really wanna worry if I earn shit
Don't wanna think about no future or a purpose
And I wish that we could try it til I'm worth it
And I hate myself for why I'm not perfect
It's getting harder to imagine I can turn this around
Sitting on the moon and watch my world spin around
All I really know is it'll hurt to get me out
I spoke with my demons that's my worst decision
Now these words still keep me down