[Lyric] Keepin’ Consciousness At Bay (Cuddlegoon)

[Verse 1: cuddlegoon]
Yeah
Palms shakin’, calm pacin’ on pavement
Sprawled and scared, recall pain in Mom’s face
Why’s it hard to care
The long Aprils, last week spent too far gone, maybe even past treatment
All but naked, hospital bracelet
Every doctor faced me, always studied, lost their patience, missed a therapy meeting
Bet she sighed in relief
It’s the parody breathin’
Don’t have a mind for belief
They started in earnest
Thе card was a burden
And now it all feels like dead еnds, so
Please don’t blame me if I can’t get down a meal before my Benzo
Klonopin a day, I’m keepin’ consciousness at bay
I’m keepin’ consciousness at bay, I’m keepin’ consciousness at bay
Yeah
Klonopin a day, I’m keepin’ consciousness at bay

[Verse 2: giveuppulp]
I’m keepin’ consciousness away
Feelings get monotonous and sleepin’s lost its way
Speaking get halted so I’m bleedin’ on a page
Misery hates company
I miss my friends and injuries lay subtly
I get the bands when I decompress and I’m shudderin’
The oxytocin turned oxycontin and I had a gown coverin’ all these columns
Ghosts that follow me, hauntin’ my problems
I lost it when they walked in
I’m tryna let the tall trees blossom
But I chopped it down for loose leaf
Fight myself fallin’ down and lose teeth
They all around, I wish I knew me
I’m feelin’ that my oxygen’s stray
I’m keepin’ consciousness at bay, ayy