[Verse 1]
I feel like a nomad
I don't feel at home anywhere
Things don't feel right
I have multiple lives
At home I am calm collected respectful son, grandson, brother, nephew
At school I am the class clown, the joker, the one who needs the approval of others
But strangely enough I don't feel like either of them are me
I feel like I'm in the middle of these two
It is only now that I'm starting to realize this
I'm in a state of limbo
[Verse 2]
I feel hollow
How am I even a human when I don't feel like one
I see myself as a sheep who can't make one decision himself
A sheep who constantly needs to be guided in a new direction
A mere animal with no skills of comprehension and a mind of its own
I feel like I have let myself down
The happy naive kid who thought he could conquer the world is gone
He is probably looking down on me and feeling disgusted by what I have become
Although sometimes I am happy that he is gone
He was happy kid who compromised his own happiness for others
He would do everything for these so called friends and at times when he needed them the most
They were never there
Now I have gotten some real friends, I think
Some that will actually listen and ask me how I am doing
My gaze has also been taken by this girl who I adore with all my heart
A girl who does not speak loudly but who observes quietly
A girl who keeps to herself and respects herself
She is also a girl who does not seem interested in me
But I will keep trying because I know that one day she will be mine
My illusion will become my reality some day
I know it
[Verse 3]
I am still naive
I don't know anything yet
About the world about myself
I am socially awkward and anxious
My lungs hurt and my mind hurts
Im doing terrible
I suck at my job
I suck at having a personality
I suck at doing more
I suck at being motivated
I suck at being happy
When will this limbo and this cycle of confusion end
Tell me please
I feel like a nomad
I don't feel at home anywhere
Things don't feel right
I have multiple lives
At home I am calm collected respectful son, grandson, brother, nephew
At school I am the class clown, the joker, the one who needs the approval of others
But strangely enough I don't feel like either of them are me
I feel like I'm in the middle of these two
It is only now that I'm starting to realize this
I'm in a state of limbo
[Verse 2]
I feel hollow
How am I even a human when I don't feel like one
I see myself as a sheep who can't make one decision himself
A sheep who constantly needs to be guided in a new direction
A mere animal with no skills of comprehension and a mind of its own
I feel like I have let myself down
The happy naive kid who thought he could conquer the world is gone
He is probably looking down on me and feeling disgusted by what I have become
Although sometimes I am happy that he is gone
He was happy kid who compromised his own happiness for others
He would do everything for these so called friends and at times when he needed them the most
They were never there
Now I have gotten some real friends, I think
Some that will actually listen and ask me how I am doing
My gaze has also been taken by this girl who I adore with all my heart
A girl who does not speak loudly but who observes quietly
A girl who keeps to herself and respects herself
She is also a girl who does not seem interested in me
But I will keep trying because I know that one day she will be mine
My illusion will become my reality some day
I know it
[Verse 3]
I am still naive
I don't know anything yet
About the world about myself
I am socially awkward and anxious
My lungs hurt and my mind hurts
Im doing terrible
I suck at my job
I suck at having a personality
I suck at doing more
I suck at being motivated
I suck at being happy
When will this limbo and this cycle of confusion end
Tell me please
( Ruud Kahn )
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