[Lyric] ​losing everything (HKFiftyOne)

[Verse 1]
Maybe you could tell I'm sick and tired of losing everything
When you hit me up, want me to smile, but I could never be
Happy in my brain, I used to fight it, now it's killing me
Winter's coming soon, I really hope that it don't get to me

[Verse 2]
Think I'm always freezing, but my brain just won't admit it
Seek out every feeling in my soul so I could kill it
Always feel too much like every day don't wanna live it
You could take this gun and splat my brains and see my spirit

[Pre-Chorus]
You don't understand, I'm just so done
Try to go away, but I won't run
Feeling all this pain, but I won't jump
Say that I could stay, but it's no fun

[Chorus]
What's the point to living if I'm feeling dead already?
Know my bed is just a coffin is my cemetery
And my brain is just a prison, I'll admit it's scary
Waking up knowing I'm breathing where I'm getting buried
I'm just tired of losing everything
Like my mind, but the pain, it'll never leave
I'm just tired of losing everything
Never happy, so I guess it wasn't meant to be
[Post-Chorus]
Fucking done, you can tell I'm getting lazy
Fuck a check, yeah you might just call me crazy
Fucking wreck, give a shit if you don't pay me
Fucking dead, what I'm living on the daily

[Verse 3]
I gave up, so just stay out my business
Leave me alone, 'cause if not I'll be livid
Gave all I had, but I fell short the minute
I tried to reach out, but then I hit my limit

[Pre-Chorus]
You don't understand, I'm just so done
Try to go away, but I won't run
Feeling all this pain, but I won't jump
Say that I could stay, but it's no fun

[Chorus]
What's the point to living if I'm feeling dead already?
Know my bed is just a coffin is my cemetery
And my brain is just a prison, I'll admit it's scary
Waking up knowing I'm breathing where I'm getting buried
I'm just tired of losing everything
Like my mind, but the pain, it'll never leave
I'm just tired of losing everything
Never happy, so I guess it wasn't meant to be